Shyness and Short

Ever since my father's divorce I became more and more closed to myself. When I was younger, I was much more open to people, made friends very easily. Now I don't talk and have lost some great opportunities for my future because of being so shy, so closed. Now my problem is people are always telling me to be more open to not be afraid to talk, well it's easier said then done. People must think I choose to be this way, to cut myself from people, people must think it's so easy to be like that, that they think I simply don't want to. Well it's not easy at least to me, I try to be more open, but it's hard. And what really annoys me is people accusing me of not trying, of wasting goods things simply because I'm to closed...

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Anyway back to more arty stuff I'm going to right a short story, probably really short just a few paragraphs about crisis, since it's it's an on going theme. Now I have the title picked, but I'm only going to say it as a teaser if people are interested. So if you want a teaser for this short story leave a comment, otherwise thank you for reading. ;)

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On other news bought a new Lego set yehhhhh. Yes I love Lego and have no problem saying it, don't know why most people at least here in Portugal say it's kids stuff.
It's a Lego Creator 3 in 1 car set, a small one.

Pens and Sleep

Last night didn't sleep that well, today had an exam and I just feel very sleepy...
Anyway, on more art related news, I found two pens I'm really enjoying, from the brand Pilot, one is a Hi-tecpoint V5 Grip, with a line of 0.3mm and the other a G-TEC-C4 with line a line of 0.2mm. I just love to write with a very thin line, I can't stand those thick line pens. Maybe I'll upload some pics of my writing (still to be decided).
Another brand of pens to go on the favorites, joining, Parker, Uni-Ball, and Rotring.

CAT BLUES (Mr. Scruff Remix)

"CAT BLUES (Mr. Scruff Remix)" by Seatbelts, Mr. Scruff

The Seatbelts Live

"Piano solo" by The Seatbelts

Non Stop

"Non Stop" by Whitey

Exams and Mapping

So I have some more exams to do, so this last half of the month will be spent studying.

Anyway on the breaks of study I want to do some maps for FPS, I always wanted to do my schools or house, but I have no experience mapping, and I don't want one of those complicated map tools.
So I thought about using either Cube or Sauerbraten, not only are they free they seem easy to use.
But if any of you guys know a easier engine or easy tool to map or want to give me a hand in this let me know ;)

ps: Está em inglês, pois este foi o update que fiz ao Journal do meu perfil no DeviantArt, e não me estava a apetecer traduzir :P

Half-Life 1 & 2 in 60 secs

Wrap It Up

Don't get upset
Don't make a fool of yourself
Don't lose your head
Please get a grip on yourself

There's nothing else you can do
There's nothing else you can do
There's nothing else you can do
There's nothing else you can do

You may well say
How could this happen to you
You may well ask
And you may not like the truth

Why is it always to you?
Why is it always to you?
Why is it always to you?
Why does this happen to you?

So cut it up
wrap it up
out of it
out of luck

cut it up
wrap it up
out of it
out of luck

cut it up
wrap it up
out of it
out of luck

cut it up
wrap it up
out of it
out of luck

You may well say
How could this happen to you
You may well ask
But you may not like the truth

Why is it always to you?
Why is it always to you?
Why is it always to you?
Why does this happen to you?

So don't get upset
Don't make a fool of yourself
Don't lose your head
Please get a grip on yourself

There's nothing worse you can do
There's nothing worse they can do
There's nothing worse they can do
There's only one thing to do

Get even
Get even
Get even
Get even
Get even

So cut it up
wrap it up
out of it
out of luck

So cut it up
wrap it up
out of it
out of luck

So cut it up
wrap it up
out of it
out of luck

Cut it up
wrap it up
out of it
out of luck

out of luck

"Wrap It Up" by Whitey

Mini-Férias

Algumas fotos que tirei num fim de semana prolongado que fiz neste mês de Agosto.

Return of the Snow

A pedido de uma pessoa especial cá estou de volta. Não que me tenha esquecido do blog, apenas estava num estado de animação suspensa.

I'm F.I.N.E. version 2.0

Why you ask? (Maybe you don't, but I'm going to tell anyway.) You know when you do somthing and you think you have done something well, or in this case a test. I made a test I was sure I was going to pass it with flying colors, today see an email from the teacher with everyone's grades, and see instead of the grade I have 'Failed'.

So yeah I'm F.I.N.E. thanks for asking.