Thursday, 14 June 2007

Depression



What do you think it's worst, not knowing you happy, or knowing you're depressed?
Kind a silly question. The point is if you depressed would you be ware that you are depressed or would you need to be told?
Now imagine you want to do something, naturally your brain sends a message to your muscles, if that's the case, or you start studying, or you start reading. What if some how you couldn't, some how your brain, the same that wants or needs to do something doesn't let. How would you undo this blockage? Maybe you would need help, maybe you wouldn't.
Now imagine your a bit stubborn and that you are reluctant to ask for help, maybe because you think it should be you to resolve your problems, maybe because you just don't want to disappoint someone. In either cases, you will never ask for help openly, you will probably start surrounding the problem and maybe after a while you begin to say you might need help.
Now picture this, you start asking for help, by explaining what's wrong with you, without at the same time tell all at once. And when your exposing your problem, let's say the problem is that blockage thing, then person that is suppose to be helping you blunts out, in this case, that there can't be any kind of blockage and if that a person knows what he wants they don't have any problem doing it; and if you had it just meant that you didn't know what you want. I could be wrong when I say this, but if a person know what he wants, but at the same time has that kind of blockage, then something is not right. And by not allowing to expose the problem, and saying not thing is wrong, just confirms my theory. How can you ask for help, if when you do people dismiss your problem has nothing.
So if I have that problems, or others, giving the nature of the help I had when exposing my problem, why would I ask for help...

ps: I didn't know who to expose this thought, so if the text seems confuse, try reading it again, I really could use some feedback on this...

2 comments:

Andreia said...

depressao é td que nao posso ouvir agora...
se nao ainda entro eu em depressao..com os meus exames à porta..
deus me livre...
mas ta muito bem feito o texto. gostei imenso.
tive que ler mais que uma vez pra perceber td direitinho!
:D

Pedro said...

Isto não é simplesmente um texto que me veio a cabeça, mas sim o que eu tenho sentido nas ultimas semanas. Comecei a pensar como haveria de expor estes meus pensamentos ontem a noite, quando estava a tentar dormir. Só não postei nessa altura porque não queria estar a levantar-me...